Started a new project. Super excited. All in. So much momentum and so much progress being made. Wow. First week in and I am feeling really good about this project. Nothing is more imprtant. Every thing is electric.

And then I wake up at the start of week two, and, nothing. I just don’t care about this anymore. But, hey that looks cool, that’s a neat idea. Let’s build that thing!

Forever this loop, until I die.

Or probably not. But damn this loop is something. Just one of those things I have learned is part of having ADHD. Good to know, wish I knew it earlier. Still, good to know. I’m not just, lazy, or bad at this.

There is a problem of momentum. I have an interest-based nervous system, and if this shit is not making my brain light up then it’s just not gonna happen. So I gotta hack it. Trick it. Use it. There’s a bit of self parenting I have to do. Discipline I also need to figure out. As you can imagine this makes a job difficult. Unexciting work is painful to do. But it’s possible. My problem is actually in the work I do outside of work. My hobbies, and other projects. They collect dust and die.

Things to try:

• Long term rewards means nothing. Which does make long term planning more challenging. Short term rewards may be effective. That means, get a coffee for doing the task, buy yourself something for a hobby, and so on.
• Accountability buddy with my wife. There can be equal exchange as I can help her with her goals as well.
• Try to gamify the thing. Make a game out of it. Make a rewards system.

I guess that’s literally all of the options :D